I urge you to stop living in the past. Don't associate things with what happened before.
And they have thereof no knowledge. They follow not except assumption, and indeed, assumption avails not against the truth at all.
Qu'ran 53:28
I urge you to stop predicting the future. Don't have hopes and dreams that aren't formidable unless you are certain of the next moment you are to live.
Ali ibn Abu Talib reported: I heard the Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, say, “In the last days, there will come young people with foolish dreams. They will say the best of words but they will go out of Islam just as an arrow goes through its game. Their faith will not go beyond their throats. So if you meet them in battle, then fight them because whoever fights them will have a reward on the Day of Resurrection.”
In the end, all is in the Hand of the Almighty God who created us, space, and time. Don't curse time, for indeed, God or Allah in Arabic said:
"Do not curse time, for verily, time is Allah ."
"Those who believe (in the Qur'an), and those who follow the Jewish(scriptures), and the Christians and the Sabians,- any who believe in God and the Last Day, and work righteousness, shall have their reward with their Lord; on them shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve." Qu'ran 2:62
May God grant us the eternal bliss.
Amen.
-Kairos