Body. My body sometimes feels like breaking. It feels so fragile, that it feels like it might falter. I sometimes feel like the fabric of the thoughts in my mind might try to materialize in the form of earthquakes on my body. Do you know what I mean? Sometimes, it feels like my body is trying to break free.
Breaks in reality. Do you feel like there are sometimes breaks in reality? Like the fabric of the universe's polka-dotted dress might just rip? Like a portal might just squeeze itself into the recesses of existence in order to just make itself exist? Like its non-existence wasn't enough already? On the brink of utter randomized chaos and perfect, harmonious order.
It feels like the heavens might just rend asunder sometimes.
[84.1] When the heaven bursts asunder,
[84.2] And obeys its Lord and it must.
[84.3] And when the earth is stretched,
[84.4] And casts forth what is in it and becomes empty,
[84.5] And obeys its Lord and it must.
[84.6] O man! surely you must strive (to attain) to your Lord, a hard striving until you meet Him.
It's as if if you make the most minuscule of mistakes, the mirage of reality might collapse. If you might turn the confines of your mind a little too much a certain way, reality might collapse all around your point of singularity.
The end of the world is nigh. It's been that way for a long time. Or maybe it's already here?
The end of your mind is close. It's been that way since day one. Or maybe it's ending right now?
The end of your life is incumbent. It's been that way when you were born. Or maybe it's over already?
It's not over until He says so. His command submits and immediately executes into existence.
"(Allah,) The Originator of the heavens and the earth. When He decrees a matter, He only says to it, "Be," and it is." (2:117)
And then he will bring you out of existence.
...And to bring you back once again.
"Does man not consider that We created him from a [mere] sperm-drop – then at once he is an open disputant? And he presents an (argument of) likeness for Us and forgets his own creation. He asks (in confusion): "Who will give life to the bones when they are disintegrated?" Say: "He will give life to them Who brought them into existence at first, and He is cognizant of all creation." He Who has made for you, from the green tree, fire. and then from it you kindle (fire). Is not He Who created the heavens and the earth able to create the like of them? Yes Indeed! and He is the Superb Creator (of all), the Ever-Knowing. Surely His Command, when He wills a thing, is only to say
to it: Be! and it is!" Therefore glory be to Him in Whose hand is the Kingdom of all things, and to Him you shall be brought back." (36:77-83)
There are three body-quakes that come to mind. One in my mind. That causes the rest. On my face. It ripples and breaks. And then finally on my body. Every time it quakes, every moment it fissures, every place it fractals, my reality also vibrates with it. Like it's being tempted. Tempted to its impending demise. As if it's telling me that one day, this is going to happen.
And it happens so often.
The breaks in reality seem to be reflections of the breaks on my face. I strive to be perfect, but alas, reality beats me to it. It breaks me, it seems, telling me I can't be as great as it. The world, the reality, the heavens call to me and say that I still need to work harder.
...Regardless if every minute wrong move might break my reality.
Think about it. About what, you ask? About every action you do. About every thought you think. About every belief you behold. Think about perfection. What is your definition of it? I know already that definition.
His name is...
Allah.
And you know it too. You just have to reach it, and you'll reach Him.
Think about it. Think about the smallest thing you might perceive, and realize it may...be the biggest change in the fabric of your existence. Realize that the smallest action, thought, belief...may shake the very reality of the heavens as you don't even know it.
Not yet. We're not there yet. But keep trying. And God-willing, we will get there.
Don't let the earthquakes on your body realize. Not yet. But soon. The three Earthquakes will break your reality...soon.
"Qiyamah will not come till you see ten signs, which are: Smoke which spreads throughout the East and West for forty days; Dajjal; Da'aba, a four-legged beast of the length of 60 yards. He will have the stick of Musa [Moses] and ring of Sulaiman [Solomon]. In running he will have no equal. He will strike Mu'min with Musa's stick and will mark the word Mu'min on his face and similarly put the stamp of Kafr [Star of David] on the face of the Kafr; Rising of the sun from the West; Descent of Isa ibn Maryam [Jesus]; Juj and Majuj [Gog and Magog]; Sinking of the earth at three places, East, West, and Arabian Gulf; Fire which will emanate from one side of Aden and drive the people to Hasr." -Prophet Muhammad (PBUH)
And Allah knows best.
-Kairos